break me please

Oh my darling

you love me so well

while You give me heaven

i give You hell

and 

this tug o' war game

has had me so tired

for some time now

But

thank You for enduring

it keeps You winning

and that doesn't bother me

any

really

because

if i'm winning

then 

i'm losing

and still better off

eventually

and

while i'm pushing

You're pulling

picking up this intentional 

slacking

and here i am

some sort of "man"

and

what am i to think of myself

as a man

who rejects

my lovers help

if unable to accept this

perfectly imperfect love

how will i ever

receive the love of the perfect ONE

three in ONE

that's how much he loves me

he became three

to take care of miserable me

i cannot handle the imperfect love 

of one

let alone three perfect ones

i don't want your love

i can't accept

i can't take it

because

i know that i

am not

worthy

of it

please 

teach me 

to be willing

i need it

even if 

beyond my understanding

break me

please